happy or not happy that is a question

Long time didn't update my bloggie=) Here becomes a wasteland. Heehee... I am not happy recently!! Really not happy. I feel stress and helpless. I dont wanna to tell everybody because that i dont want they show any sympathize to look at me. My mum is not feeling well recently. She feel dizzy often. 

I really worry bout her health. My aunt and cousins asked me to call my mum when i am 

free. I dont know what can i do......I really feel helpless. my mum asked me to go back 

on this friday due to my aunt invited me to a gathering but i cant make it. It is because 

i have a dozen of exams on next week. too exaggerate but 4 exams. I dont know that can 

i handle it.... as i found that i cant memorize too much things recently. No matter is 

notes or other things..... i keep forgetting this and that. I cant even concentrate during 

the lesson. Maybe because i lack of sleeping. Haha!! But then i will go back on next month 

to move house. Finally, we are going to move into new house. I hope that my mum can 

have a healthier life but not dirty, smoky place. my biggest wish is to let my mum getting 

healthier. I dont mind to use my ten years life to exchange her life. I haven't let my mum 

to enjoy a better life..... I still can remember when she was lying on the bed in hospital 

with giving support by the machine and a large tube was insert into her throat. i wont 

forget this scenario. I love my mum more than everything. I dont want to lose her..at least 

not now. What can i do to extend her life??? Praying?? I hope that it works....... 

Recently, i face a problem in relationship. Can i say that as a problem? 

Because im not sure that is my problem. Maybe yes or maybe no. I feel that the concern 

from him is getting lesser and lesser. I know that maybe because of his assignments and 

exams so that i cant say anything because it is being unfair to him. I tried..i tried to 

stick on him like a kid but i found that i didnt work..keep sending the message, talkbox 

and anything to him but he didnt get any reply. The most hurt part was he said that i was 

annoying. I was wondering that was he serious when he said that but i really hurt me. 

And this also was the reason why i was so angry to him. I thought that i have used to the 

long distance relationship but i was wrong. Till now i still scare of long distance. How far 

i evade and how deep i afraid. my friends surrounding me have broken up with their 

boyfriends....and i afraid that one day i will become like them. Everything will change 

because of we are human being. 

01062011

wow...time flies. Today is 1 June 2011. You don't even know how much i miss you. so just shhhhhhh...............

06052011

The days you are not here quite boring..... maybe be strong is the only way. 

I cried when i watched a Thailand movie. It was nice..The main roles in the movie were pretty and charming. The movie was talk about a story between a boy and a girl. They kept missing the chances to say out their feel to each other. Until few years ago....... 

She was the main actress in the movie. LOOK! She was an ugly duckling right? This was the look when she was Junior one.

But she kept improving herself to let the boy fallen in love with her. Look pretty, right? She wasn't a super duper beauty with heavy make-up but she also made people felt comfort and sweet. After that she went to New York for further studies.

This was the main role in the movie and this was the guy that she falling in love who was good in football and photograph. And he was also the guy who waited fro her to come back for USA.

So sweet huh=]

These were her good friends in the movie. They were funny and i felt touched in the part of their friendship too. I feel like watching some more movies recently but no one....so sad=.= i gonna become an otaku soon=p

weekend=]

Even though i can't hang out on the weekend but i still love it because i enjoy even in my small room. This week i have to prepare for my next assessment (Accommodation Operation). I have to finish 8 topics in 3 days. Keep going Yvonne=] YEAH!! HAHA!! Besides, the only excuse not going to wash my hair which is stay in my room for whole day.HAHAHA!!

HAHAHA!! My hair smells not really bad. I washed it LAST NIGHT!!=p

I brought back my lunch from restaurant yesterday which was a pudding and 3 pieces of stuffed chicken. I love the dessert. 

It really delicious. I feel hungry now><!! OMG.. what should i eat for dinner...=[ This dessert was responsible by a pastry chef. He is a chef who always make macaroon.== Hope that i can try his macaroon one day=p

wowowowowow~~yummy!! I want someone~~~~~~~~~!!!!!

I skype with this fellow last night. He always does something stupid in front of me. This is the way i like. The way you not pretend yourself in front of me. How true you are. Good luck on your presentation on monday ♥ No one is cuter than you.HAHAHA!! You spoiled the pipe!!

Nothing is perfect

Happy  First Anniversary=] In my life, no one is perfect but only appropriate.  And it is hard to meet a person who loves you and you love him to. Fortunately, i met a guy who was suitable to me. JASON CHIA! I won't feel any sadness because couldn't celebrate the anniversary with you. I'm not a little girl who only know how to celebrate the anniversary but i'm a girl who care about the future.=] If no accident, we still have a lot of time. OMG...i can't find a good picture in your photo album to post it.HAHA!! 

Waiting for you to come back this is the only i want to say. Good Luck to you!!

you are so "sexy"

Yesterday we went to have meal at Sutera Mall Er Cong Wan=] It was really enjoyable. After meal, we went to moonlight to chit chat. We took a lot of photos. You guys really made me feel delight=]

My pant looked tight=[ I don't know why...........=[

I tagged this photo to Jason Chia and Xiao Hong.HAHA!! These photos are photos after edited. I love it very much. It looked much more better.

I found a girl=]

Is it moral education?HAHAHA!! 

At last, she slapped me>< Muack!! HEHE...

They are couple. Funny=]

They are couple too!!!! G?A?Y?

I have no idea what i did.HAHAHA!!

Phuah...you are cute!!!=]

Days in JB

Yoohoo~~I reached my home yesterday=] but i found something that really made me surprised=[ feel bad...i DISLIKE smoker.Seriously.....

Today, i went to my new house!! I really looking forward to move in. And i will stay in a medium room which just enough to place a bed, wardrobe and desk but those enough to me. I don't need a big room because it will consume my energy=p This is me new house look.

Today was a hot weather but i think KL was rainy day. 

Well, i like my room. Although i am not stay at my house seldom, i still want to have a beautiful room. It is because it is an attraction to attract me to come back home from KL=] I love i love~~ I think i should start packing my stuff. It is not a easy work man!!HAHA!! but im willing to do this for my new house ♥

After that, curly and i went to Plaza Pelangi. I haven't been there for a long time. It changed....it became a low class shopping mall. When i passed a shop two guys were standing at there and smoking><OMG....I bought a formal shirt=]hehehe...after that, i went to jusco and i was looked for a pair of high heel but i couldn't find it=[where can i find a good high heel!!!!!!i want to wear a pair of high heel which won't make my feet painful...!!!but it really hard to find it.Singapore again?sigh.....

Tomorrow i will go to have a meal with my dearest friends. we will go to japanese cuisine. Teehee..my mum kept asking me was i really sure wanted to have japanese cuisine.She's worries because of the radiation><such a cute mum ♥ but i really feel like eating japanese cuisine and she made me feel a bit scared now>< how how how??T.T Just now my dear called me...we used english to chat=] iwannaimprovemyenglish!!!!!!!=p

HAHA!!this was the photo that i sent to my dear ♥goodnight=]

To be or not to be that's a question

what's going on to my "bloggie". It must be something wrong to it. I couldn't write my blog for one month but now fine. Really feel wtf. I wanna record all my sadness and happiness at here but i couldn't. OMG. Today was my F&B service lesson and i did my first pineapple flambe. It quite sweet actually. so far so good=] At my first practice, the portable stove was fired. It really gave me a great scare but after that it went smoothly. I really appreciated. After lesson, our lecturer gave us a briefing. He asked us did we really interested in F&B. I couldn't answer him YES straightly. It was a bit hang back. I really afraid that i get tired to this program. I don't feel like wasting my mum's money and my time as well but i really afraid that i couldn't attend semester3 fluently. It becomes a stress to me. Don't talk about it. I think I can and I must do it!! Well, my holiday is coming=] Actually we have already planned for our holiday. But most of my friends couldn't make it last minute so we just scrub it. Never mind, we can go next time=] Finally, it is my turn to enjoy the holiday. I wanna go back home i wanna go back home i wanna go back home.

I miss my dear. May i go to Aus on June?HEHE=] Our first year anniversary is coming soon. I really didn't expect that i can have a long term love because i really didn't try it before. At least i still can feel it.

See..He's showing his banana chips to me.HAHAHA!! muack~~

as simple as i want

I didn't feel like explaining something because i thought that you would know. Tomorrow is April Fool. My exam is coming soon but every thing will be ended before my holiday. God bless me..in everything. i feel wanna sleep but i have a lot of homework to go. 

my mood was ruined because of something stupid. And i am a stupid